It has been a little over sixty days since I put My Journey To Health down for a while. You might call it 60 days in prison. And it was in a way. I have been flipping around between emotional illness and physical illness during that time and my life was a mess. Some days I barely got out of bed for one or the other of those reasons. The worst days were the ones I couldn’t get out of bed because of both of the reasons. Now, however I am on the mend and ready to start again. This however will be a battle that is totally new and I am excited to be taking you on the journey with me.
My psychologist has made the suggestion that I go vegan. This is something I am easing into. I figure by the middle of June, the change should be complete. There is also food in my freezer that I do not wish to throw out. When that is gone the change will have been made.
Becoming vegan means that you get all your nourishment from plants. So vegetables fruits grains nuts beans are your whole diet. This can be called Plant Power according to my good friend Steve. A vegetarian, on the other hand, is no meat but I believe dairy and eggs are allowed. For a while I will be more vegetarian than vegan but the switch will happen eventually.
This is hard for me. I like meat and to be honest I do not like green vegetables at all. Broccoli literally makes me sick to my stomach. So I will be going into grounds that I am very nervous about. I believe I can do it, but it won’t be easy.
I guess a question that should be answered here is why am I doing this? The answer is a bit complicated but here we go. I think my psychologist believes that I would not only lose weight by following this kind of diet, but I may also rid my body of some of the poisons that processed food dumps into it. Eliminating those may help do a reset on some of my emotions. Time and perseverance will tell. Hanging with this will be the toughest part, especially if I smell bacon.
I need to confess here that I am a fast food junkie. I did go with out sugar from the first of January until mid March but I did not go with out McDonald’s, Burger King, Arby’s or Boston Market. Then there were Hungry Man Dinners and many other microwavable foods which was what I have been used to eating since my mom passed away.
I have been living with my folks for awhile, as due to some physical problems and the emotional issues, I cannot work. Mom was a great cook and, not to be vain, I inherited that from her. When she died it was like all the joy of cooking disappeared. I have been upstairs, I have an apartment in the basement, a total of three times to use the kitchen in the last three years. It’s just dad and I and to be honest it’s very sad without mom.
Exercise is the next hurdle to cross. According to my psychiatrist I have boobitrapped myself when it comes to exercise. After even a small amount of exercise I don’t feel good about what I have accomplished, in fact I feel extremely depressed and hopeless. This is coming from the bad feelings I have about myself. Those feelings are so intense that my brain actually won’t let me feel good about me. Exercise at this point fuels my low self esteem instead of helping it. Now what can be done about that? Nothing! I have to exercise anyway and allow my brain to adjust. This will not be easy. I was told to begin with light exercise, again easing into the whole thing.
I have a lot more to say but for now this is enough. It’s good to be back with you all and I hope you will follow me on my journey. Next up is being healthy like a Hobbit.